WOW. MY VACATION HAS BEEN REALLY MELLOW. FOR REALLY VANILLY!
As i said before its been lame. . .boring to the max. i'm gonna go to church tommorow and then hang out with my sis and then go to bed. yay. july 21-25 i have to be a crew leader at a little day camp at my church . . . basically babysitting. yay. then i get to well do nothing. i dont know what to do with my life. anyone have ideas. i'm open to anything.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Sunday, July 6, 2008
THIS IS NOT A SUICIDAL NOTE. . .
. . . but with my deppresed life it will probably sound like one. WOW where do i start? Let me see i have finally returned to the oh so wonderful US of A, i had a less than an ok time in Mexico, the deadline for a scholarship to attend NYLC has passed, my future oriented sister is here, i got a haircut, i'm dyeing some strands blue, and i didnt attend church today. Yeah that covers it.
Shall i elaborate on the statements above? Well, mexico pretty much sucked. i mean the ride there and back was unbearable with my 1.5 yr old nephew, extremely annoying 12 yr old nephew, and abnoxious 9, 11, and 13 yr old nieces, plus my grouchy dad, deppressed mother, and UGH 32 year old sister. We all fit in the expo that if you tried to squeeze one more object in it would explode! I swear i was going to die. When we finally arrived my aunt, as always, called me fat which i was expecting. so i just let the comment slip but ofcourse she had to call my niece fat so she made my 13 yr old niece self conscious the whole time there. AHHHHHHH! i was going to literally pull my hair out. summer in mexico is mosquito season so i got eaten alive. and my grandma didnt remember me but that was expected. i just really wanted to sleep the whole time and i basically did, talk about making the best out of a bad situation. I have to say the high points of my awful trip was my cousin's grad, going to school with my cousin, and on the way back we stopped at Mazatlan. That would of taken 2 days to accomplish. yay. Now my parents came from 2 seperate little pueblos my mom from Gavilan Grande and my dad from Pajaritos, Gavilan is close to Santiago (internet!), and Pajaritos is close to Tecuala (internet!) but my grouchy dad would not let me go to either. so pretty much i just was bogas for me of gone.
I''m not trying to scapegoat the trip but if i had just stayed here at home i could of gotten my scholarship form for NYLC on time. i know a big part was my procastination but jeezzzz being there was just a waste. Now i feel really bad because although i could of gone and i didnt! i mean $1,559 is alot of money and especially for me and my family. . . . AHHHHHH! i probably could of fundraised it on time if i had started when i got the nomination. God i hate myself right now so much. July 11th is the deadline for the money and application and guess what that is this freakin friday, this really truly sucks. . . a lot. and i cant help but blame myself, here comes the pity party. So my sister is here and she's great but she gave me a lecture on my future as always. but htis time i agreed and i have now mapped out what i'm gonna do . . . since my family does not have the priviledge of money,hec we are flat out broke when i get out of highschool i will of hopefully of gotten into the Airforce Academy, no im not gonna go to war, there i will work my butt of as a cadet studying watever profession i choose. that will be 4 years of my life, age 21 then since i got a free education i must work for the government for 4 years to work of my debt then i will be 25. those four years are mandatory and i might not get my proffesion, after that i am gonna work for 15 years for the goverment but under the proffesion i chose at 40 i get to retire!! yay!! hahaha. my sis worked it out.
anyways sorry if that bore you, i cut my hair alot. well not a lot its shoulder length. and i have side bangs, sort of and layers. . . you kind of have to see it. i'm gonna dye 3 peek a boo aqua blue highlights. YAY!!!
Ok i'm tired so i will continue to bore who ever is crazy enough to read this later. later. see ya and although i'm a tad deppresed i'm sure i'll be ok.
Shall i elaborate on the statements above? Well, mexico pretty much sucked. i mean the ride there and back was unbearable with my 1.5 yr old nephew, extremely annoying 12 yr old nephew, and abnoxious 9, 11, and 13 yr old nieces, plus my grouchy dad, deppressed mother, and UGH 32 year old sister. We all fit in the expo that if you tried to squeeze one more object in it would explode! I swear i was going to die. When we finally arrived my aunt, as always, called me fat which i was expecting. so i just let the comment slip but ofcourse she had to call my niece fat so she made my 13 yr old niece self conscious the whole time there. AHHHHHHH! i was going to literally pull my hair out. summer in mexico is mosquito season so i got eaten alive. and my grandma didnt remember me but that was expected. i just really wanted to sleep the whole time and i basically did, talk about making the best out of a bad situation. I have to say the high points of my awful trip was my cousin's grad, going to school with my cousin, and on the way back we stopped at Mazatlan. That would of taken 2 days to accomplish. yay. Now my parents came from 2 seperate little pueblos my mom from Gavilan Grande and my dad from Pajaritos, Gavilan is close to Santiago (internet!), and Pajaritos is close to Tecuala (internet!) but my grouchy dad would not let me go to either. so pretty much i just was bogas for me of gone.
I''m not trying to scapegoat the trip but if i had just stayed here at home i could of gotten my scholarship form for NYLC on time. i know a big part was my procastination but jeezzzz being there was just a waste. Now i feel really bad because although i could of gone and i didnt! i mean $1,559 is alot of money and especially for me and my family. . . . AHHHHHH! i probably could of fundraised it on time if i had started when i got the nomination. God i hate myself right now so much. July 11th is the deadline for the money and application and guess what that is this freakin friday, this really truly sucks. . . a lot. and i cant help but blame myself, here comes the pity party. So my sister is here and she's great but she gave me a lecture on my future as always. but htis time i agreed and i have now mapped out what i'm gonna do . . . since my family does not have the priviledge of money,hec we are flat out broke when i get out of highschool i will of hopefully of gotten into the Airforce Academy, no im not gonna go to war, there i will work my butt of as a cadet studying watever profession i choose. that will be 4 years of my life, age 21 then since i got a free education i must work for the government for 4 years to work of my debt then i will be 25. those four years are mandatory and i might not get my proffesion, after that i am gonna work for 15 years for the goverment but under the proffesion i chose at 40 i get to retire!! yay!! hahaha. my sis worked it out.
anyways sorry if that bore you, i cut my hair alot. well not a lot its shoulder length. and i have side bangs, sort of and layers. . . you kind of have to see it. i'm gonna dye 3 peek a boo aqua blue highlights. YAY!!!
Ok i'm tired so i will continue to bore who ever is crazy enough to read this later. later. see ya and although i'm a tad deppresed i'm sure i'll be ok.
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