****SIGH****

Jencarlos Canela has become my new obsession. . . .  . oh my . . . =D On top of his gorgeousness he is a great musician that can play the guitar and drums. Anyways, he has officially become  the youngest celebrity i crush on, he's 21. Not to shabby. I mean compared to Hugh Jackman, Christian Bale, Christian Meyer and Enrique Iglesias. HAHA. I just cant help myself with mature HOT men.  . . . . call it a hobby. 

Ok so moving on with actual reality. Lets just say my life has gone on its usual path of sameness. I mean you can call me depressed but my life is not exactly spring colors at the moment. So things that you may not know about me: 

1) I'm not rich. On the contrary, my family clearly does not even own the roof we live under.  Its a fact and unfortunately the probability of me going out of state for college is not even in the range of possibilities, or dreams for that matter. 

2) My full brother is a delinquent. He has been in and out of jail for all of his life and has never been in my life. He's practically  a stranger that happens to be related to me. He got out one week before christmas 2008 and had parol. The retard just got re-arrested because he broke parol and was doing other unmentionables. They want to pin him 15 years. Oh joy.

3) I'm an OK student but other than that, I don't know what I am. I cant play an instrument, I don't play a sport, etc. I'm lost. 

 

I can probably think of more later and by all means i'll post them up but in 2 weeks i'll be a junior in high school that means i only have 2 years to become a STAR student or get something else under my belt to even see a better future. And that is pressure. I don't know what i'm going to do. Its funny how when your young you think everything is possible because everyone tells you so but in reality thats not true. A lot depends on what you can afford and how much you push your limits. 

Moving away from that chat, I haven't been here on so long and I seriously cant think of anything absolutely major. So i'll end now. Maybe later i'll blog again.

-Lili AKA Smurfburrito

PS I'll post my poems up. . . they're for english but maybe i'll make them more of a hobby.