So Long

Well its been a long time since i wrote on here. . . a couple days or a week. i dont know. but i was in San Luis Obispo over my boring but oh so great spring break and as i looked at my family eating at my sisters dinner table i noticed that my family is really torn and that . .. well, we're comformist. something i do not ever desire to be. We #1, like i said in my last blog, tend to bend to others opinions and life instead of sticking to our own identity. My family has not strived for something big like a trip or a goal. we're just here on earth living day by day on the same boring schedule. . . how boring. My mom and dad are having problems with there marriage and money, i'm having problems @ school and plain life, my sister has problems with her fiance, my other sister with her husband and kids, and my other other sister with her boyfrienda and the IRS, my brother with the law (although he has been good lately), and well we have not time to enjoy life, not even to enjoy each other. As you can plainly see we are really messed up at the moment. and it wasnt always that way. i learned that a long time ago AKA pre-me days my dad actually took my family places now he is so run down that all he does is work work oh and work then sleep. my mom has been killing her back cleaning houses, and everything is taking a toll on me because although they are not necessarly my own problems they still weigh me down with the thought of my family suffering. i want to go to spirit west coast (christian rock band thing) $100 something dollars and they give it to me but instantly i feel ashamed for asking for something. These are really hard times in my world from finance to my spiritualism eveything is messed up.
HA i just noticed i dont have #2. oh well. Its late im not done with homework, life sux, i need job, my family is in deep caca and yet i have the ordacity (spell check!) to still want a love life. how pathetic is that. my life is complicated enough and i want to add yet another problem. .. but hey i guess that is wat teenagers are best at, right? :) Well i need to finish health homework so i must say good bye. Blog back soon!