Is he gorgeous or gorgeous? i cant decide!!! i mean look at those eyes and hair!!! hmmm. . . no have not gone boy crazy but just look. how can i not resist to ramble a little. a i'm gonna go nuts. as i said before he's like 27 so let me see 27-14=13 not too shabby. hehe. anyways nothing important happened just an average boring as hec day at school, my hip bone really hurts and i got a nice woodfloor burn on my foot yesterday.
so i cant wait until this weekend on friday i leave to del mar, i know real far, and rock out to christian rock concerts ALL weekend then HOPEFULLY monday (no school) me and my friends can hang out all freakin day to make up for all the time we have been missing out. its gonna be a blast!! CHOW!
****WARNING DEPPRESION TALKING!*****
so while i posted the super random post this morning titled, morning, i was thinking how i really really really want to start having a lovelife. pathetic? i think so. now, dont get me wrong i'm not the kind of person that rushes stuff but lately, especially withought my friends, i've been lonely. i mean all my sisters have something in there hands, my freakin niece has a more active social life!, and i only have a couple of friends at LCC. its been pretty lonely. my closest friend at LCC just got a boyfriend, i totally disagree with her decision b/c she is practically using the poor guy. and thats saying something cause i dislike the guy. i already nipped her in the butt for it and will keep on annoying her. now i know i should fill that space and time with God, etc. but lately i have been having issues with that, too. i really cant be going into some type of deppression. hopefully not. but i mean i nice guy in my life right now would be really, well, nice. but thats not going to happen so i guess filling my head with ben barnes, and other narnian boys, love story and novels, drawing, and my crush is a way of distracting from a more deeper pain/problem. i havent put my finger on it but i know i'm not even close to being content with my life. i feel so unaccomplished, and stupid, my self-esteem is practically past the sewer and into a dump, and my family is having alot of issues lately. i've found myself sleeping alot recently its like another way of postponing lonelyness . . . ur numb and u dont have to think of anything, ur head dreams. well. . . THAT WAS DEPPRESSING. going on with my sad life. nope that was it. hahaha. i guess this is goodbye for now.
signing out,
lili aka smurf burrito
PS come on is he gorgeous or gorgeous?!?
1 comment:
bahahah definintely gorgeous :P
plus if I married him we''d only be 12 years apart (HA same as my parents!)
stop being depressed. JC, if he's got any sort of a BRAIN wants you, and your basically the best girlfriend material i've ever SEEN. this is including me of course(though im actually not that terrific of a girlfriend :P)(ie. i actually avoided my own boyfriend)
but yeah your depression is depression-making to those around you, making you a health hazard. but its ok. im all depressed too.
we can go be depressed together.
on MONDAY maybe?
mucho amor,
shea
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