Confusion

*************WARNING! A SWEET FAR THING SPOILERS INVOLVED (IN GRAY)******************

So today i got to start school at 9:20 because of STAR testing. =) so as i sat there determining DNA sequences i thought of how much farther i need of this torture!! AHHHHHHHH! but finally i finished and started reading A SWEET FAR THING and guess what AHHHHHHHHH!!! felicity kissed pippa or better said pippa kissed felicity. yeah! the two girls passionantly kissed each other!!! isnt that shocking and totally explained why they were such good 'friends'. HA. i cant believe they were lesbians so i was reading this in class and i also read the part were Gemma and Kartik get jiggy with it, hows that for a nice testing time. anyways i had to write that in here. i mean its about the most interesting thing that has happened to me all day. So after school my mom picked me up and dropped me off at my sister Martha's house because she was still not done. usually when i'm there i feel a warmness a certain feeling of being content but today i felt a lot of hostile coldness. i mean Jeff (brother-in-law) was super cold and my sister was getting mad at me for not going to youth group today!! is it my fault my nut of a math teacher gave me so much homework. UGH! so today has not been so peachy. seriously i felt so out of it and i've had this uneasy feeling like if something is going to happen. you know that uncertainess. its so irritating. . . you know. probably not? so today i saw my crush for a short 40 minutes and totally ignored him cuz i was reading the book then i saw the other cute guy and my stomach flipped. . . could that mean something? i dont know anymore. i'm so confused. well anyways one thing is for sure this weekend has to be a party weekend for me and my friends. and by party i mean a relaxing evening with my best friends. oh yeah im a party animal. hehe. =) anywaysers, life as it is is so unfullfilling. and i just feel lonely. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! i'm so stressed so annoyed so tired i cant think straight and i really dont want to do homework or think about tommorow. (insert an annoyed, angry, tired sound here). My confusion about my religion has settled to a nice feeling of comfort when i think about God listening to all of my problems.
Lets switch to a nicer subject. So at my sisters house i got my TWILIGHT back and was skimming through my favorite parts . . .the more i read the more handsome Edward look, feels and the more romance seems to bloom out of the awesome pages. i love it. so i got to go. but theres my day and thoughts-----------------interesting huh?

Signing out,
Lili AKA smurf burrito
PS What should i do with my hair? its really boring. i was thinking of cutting it or dying it. idk comments please!